A mother's choices

What is it that makes men want you to separate you from your male child? I reflect upon the lack of relationship my stepfather had with my brother. I didn't understand the fullness of why it was so important to have him out of the house. I did not understand why it was so important to have to choose. I understand clearly why my brother would rise up against a mother that has chosen a man that did not choose the fullness of her package. HE knew we were a package deal and yet he banished my brother and truly that is the reason why my brother is so lost today. They sent him to prison; literally!

I too am faced with this choice, and I dare not to choose either.

I see a son crying out for justice and validation; his position and his power to protect. Yet I also see a son out of control and disrespectful toward the mother, he is fighting so hard to protect because of the this new war he is in.

I see a man who is desperately trying to take control and prove his manhood and take dominion over his woman and her home. I see a man who is doing all he can within his power to separate that woman from her children; his competition. Competition of position, love, protection, order and authority.

I see them both wrong. I see them both right.

I see me loosing them both.

I have lost!

Z

Clearing out negativity

It is imperative to our health and happiness to expel the negativity that is charging within our life. Oh how we take for granted the negative influences that floods our environment on a daily, hourly, momentous basis.

The radio, television, and relationships are major players in dumping of negative energy that clouds your progress, attitude and outcome in life. We tend to desire life, love, joy and happiness yet we allow these blockers to continue to dump on us. How is it then that we begin to complain about how bad things are? Well, easy. The portals that are used are not being utilized well enough to increase the positive useful energy that produces positive desired results.

We have to be conscious minded enough to balance out within ourselves the types of energy that foster a fullness of success, healthy, joy filled life. We must feed our soul and mind with the right type of positivity or energy that will show itself in your outer realm of your life.

I encourage you to drink the cup on greatness, positive suggestive s and energy. Try positive affirmations or agree with the words you speak to yourself. If you find yourself not affirming the greatness of self that lies within; begin now.

Love's lore is ever changing!

Love: we have a distorted view, overly expectant of that which is unrealistic, we are confused.

Can someone tell me why in the world do we expect perfection when it comes to relationships? I think many would beg to differ, but I stand strongly on this utterance of truth. We are out of realities realm of truth when we live the life of expectation of perfection.

No rough spots, no hard time is what we expect. At the first imbalance, or fluctuation comes along we walk out, throw in the towel, or we stomp out the flame. That is not love.

I am hungered to feed off his presence, breathe, smell, being, all that he is. I am a wonder-lust for his emoting of ALL.

He has given me NO-THING, yet he has afforded me every thing. I am Full. He has escorted me out of chaos and delivered me unto the courts of ever. The words of true, elude me as the definitions flee. Yet as I awaken the breath of this moment I dare to exhale or allow the rhythmic flow of a mere heartbeat, disrupt the monumental euphoria he gives me.

I am allowing his love to flow, build, redirect, redeposit and renew me.