A mother's choices

What is it that makes men want you to separate you from your male child? I reflect upon the lack of relationship my stepfather had with my brother. I didn't understand the fullness of why it was so important to have him out of the house. I did not understand why it was so important to have to choose. I understand clearly why my brother would rise up against a mother that has chosen a man that did not choose the fullness of her package. HE knew we were a package deal and yet he banished my brother and truly that is the reason why my brother is so lost today. They sent him to prison; literally!

I too am faced with this choice, and I dare not to choose either.

I see a son crying out for justice and validation; his position and his power to protect. Yet I also see a son out of control and disrespectful toward the mother, he is fighting so hard to protect because of the this new war he is in.

I see a man who is desperately trying to take control and prove his manhood and take dominion over his woman and her home. I see a man who is doing all he can within his power to separate that woman from her children; his competition. Competition of position, love, protection, order and authority.

I see them both wrong. I see them both right.

I see me loosing them both.

I have lost!

Z